I cancelled the meeting with the lawyer and decided that for my own mental sanity and just because I am who I am, I am just going to keep my head down, do my work and get the hell out of here. I asked for help from HR to make it through in peace until that day. No retaliation, no write ups, not threats. Just let me do my job that I have always done well and continue to look and hopefully in less than 2 months, I will be out of here. I dont have much faith that that will happen, but I know this: I am buddhist. I am the core of a good buddhist who gets better everyday. I still have anger and emotions that I cannot control sometimes and it gets the best of me. But my foundation needs to believe there is karma and one day they will get what is theirs. Of all the things in my life that could have wrecked or changed me, this job will not be honored enough to be NEAR that list.
This too will pass and I will be a better person because of it. Everything happens for a reason. I will figure it out. Until then, I am done with the drama and meanness here. The world looks brighter on my side of the hall in general, I will not let them take that from me.