Groan.

Again in the wrong direction. This was a horrible month. It got slightly more under control at the end of the month, but there were days that I weighed myself and couldn’t even bring myself to write the weight down. So the average should have been even worse than it was.

We’re 9 months into the year of daily weighing and monthly averaging, and the best I can say is that I’m basically right where I started. Which is of course better than losing ground, but I’m really failing at the overall goal.

S is doing this too, and having the same result as me. So as I said to him this morning, we need more of a concrete plan. Not simply saying, “We’re going to lose some weight.” We need guidelines about how to do this and then we need to follow the guidelines.

This is really important to me. I saw pictures from this summer, and though I’m not where I want to be, I am at a better weight than I was a year or two ago. It was nice to see those pictures and not have my first thought be, “I look so fat!” and not only do I want to continue to think this way, but I also want to make some progress. I want to be at my goal weight.

I just have to want that more consistently, so it can guide my eating and exercising decisions.