The only real thing im worried about is what would she have done if my mate hadnt been there? I cant seem to drop it! Im never like this and to be honest im scared to find out whats going to come out in the wash. Im maybe jst angry with myself for having invested so much emotion in a person, and now in the flick of a switch ive gone from what ive always felt, stable and strong, to trying my best not to feel bitter and weak. WTF is that all about?