The teacher spent the entire day pretty much on the rampage. It was awful, and at the end of clinicals she announced that this entire class was not fit to be nurses and we were failing out. The whole class. We just sat there in stunned silence, and one lady burst into tears. Strangely, the lady I took care of today kept praising me to everyone. She was happy, at least.

So I just keep trying and just put myself in my inner happy place when she yells at me. Today she did that a lot, as her favorite student missed clinical without calling (which I think triggered much of the rampage, she seems to have an unhealthy attachment to that woman).

The hardest thing is that the rules seem to change every day, and there is no example of what is really expected. It’s really crazy-making and I am beginning to think there is something seriously wrong with her. The whole class with the exception of her favorite student can’t be that bad. Really.

Well anyway tomorrow I find out my result on the last of this series of tests so this might be the end anyway. I took a nap after this day and I had a nightmare of being kicked out of the program for the most stupid reason, and her just mocking me.

I do keep focusing on what I do right, which is a lot. And if I do survive tomorrow, there is only slightly over two weeks left with her. I can survive, and get past this.