paisleypaige Non illegitimi te carborundum
This is feeling like a pretty loaded question at the moment. There is this session that happens for one hour, once a week in our class where we sit and people just talk about what they feel, what the things we’ve been learning has brought up for us; I find that because I have worked so hard at facing a lot of demons and removing some demons from my life that I am in much calmer, happier space. I am in a place of learning who I am and defining myself which is scary and exciting but in these session there are many who are in a space that I used to be in and so when I speak I feel the backlash of ‘she can’t be real, she’s hiding’ and I almost feel pressured into saying something sad and negative which defeats the process…....I think the best course of action is to say nothing in this weeks session as I don’t want to pretend. I spent my whole life doing that to please others and I refuse to play that game.