I saw a quote the other day that went something like… “insanity is when you keep doing the same things over again and expect different results.” I think it was Albert Einstein or maybe someone else, a philosopher?. I’m sticking with Einstein… I’ll double check on google when I am finished rambling… (I think I am beginning to over use the …) anyways, this quote applies to me. I am being insane. why do I keep making the same mistakes again and again and again? When I am going to stop and make some changes? I can think about making changes and think about it and think about, make lists, draw pictures, write down in a journal a thousand times, but thats not gonna do it…nothing is going to change. It has to be more than that. I have to overcome fear, step out of my comfort zone to makes these changes… put myself in situations that will cause me to get stomped on. I run away… I keep running away, giving up… which is easy. Everything is always easy. because I make sure I keep it that way. no challenges… which in the end would mean a life of “nothingness” Staying on the same path, always doing things the easy way, staying comfortable. The funny thing is, my biggest fear is having a monotonous life, a boring meaningless life, but right now.. I am on the path for a BORING, MEANINGLESS life. I have to get off this path. I don’t know how to stop making these same mistakes. Why would anything change if I am not willing to change?