The more I think about the idea of moving out, the more it scares me. As much as I don’t like to admit it, I am way to dependent on my mom, and I feel that the only way to break that is to move out, at least for a school year just to get a feel. I am so close to my little sister and my mom, and I feel like I am the one who protects them. If I leave, I will feel like I’m deserting them, or that something will happen to them. At the same time, I know I have to do this for me. I know that my mom will have a fit when she finds out I want to move out next year, she always finds some excuse (“oh, you’re not ready to live on your own”) but I think she does that because she is dependent on me too. The crazy thing is, my school is only 20 minutes away, it wouldn’t be like I would be moving to another state, or even city for that matter.

I just need to take the initiative and sign that lease without hesitation and without second thoughts. If i want to take control of my life, it needs to be done.