It’s almost Halloween and cos I’m into the spirit of the holiday, I usually put on some sort of headband with ears. Yesterday I put on some cat ears (today I’m wearing bunny ears). When I had on the cat ears, boyo’s best friend asked me what cat I was trying to be. I said me!

I’m surprised by that answer—for the longest I’ve felt uncomfortable in my skin, but now I feel good about myself. I’m also trying to let others be my friend, and try to be friendly, and it’s nice to have company. I’m still freaked out by being touched (only cos i’m highly sensitve to touch—someone could accidentally bump into me and it feels like I got knocked about). I desparately want to touch boyo and hug him frequently, but I can’t—it feels like I’m holding back. Maybe cos I love him so intensely that if i were to hug him, I won’t be able to let go.