Lol I think nowadays I’m pretty much known for not caring what people think, like I’m always the one who does or says somethink and everyone else is like “people are watching” and I’m like “well who cares”

The thing is, I don’t care about the opinions of people I don’t know or like, witch gives me a lot of freedom to do all kinds of crazy stuff. I don’t just say I don’t care, it really doesn’t bother me if a random grandma thinks I’m crazy. What takes my energy is thinking how I should behave so the right people could think the right things about me.

So I’m kind of afraid that if my friends find out who I “really” am they wont like me anymore and thats why I don’t even know myself who I am since I’ve always tried to hide it… because I care so much.