I can’t seem to stop crying.. as this is the only way I feel a little peace.. and now it’s getting to a point where I am crying uncontrollably.. I carry too much guilt for not being a good muslim.. I wish with all my heart I could be a better muslim.. I swear, I don’t want the riches of the world just a little peace from this aching heart and just a quiet place not luxurious just simple where I can be left to pray to my hearts content in PEACE!.. I swear.. I wana give love with all my heart.. and not see anyone in the position I am in today.. I need real guidance. I hope I get help soon insha-Allah.. cos I swear.. I’m hurt big time.