I can fully relate to your situation, reading your entry brought a tear to my eye, something that rarely happens.

Maybe you need to not think about the ifs and buts associated with externals like weight gain, etc and just concentrate on getting the help you need. You are worth more than the drug that is clinging to you.

Hey Justtani: I am a recovering meth addict. I know EXACTLY how you feel and I have been in all the same situations as yourself. It is a horrible life. But there is hope. I did meth for four years. I weighed 98lbs when i finally ended up in an ICU, 3 rehabs, Jail, mental institutions, Ive seen and done it all unfortunately. Ive been clean now almost 3 years….If I did it, I know you can too. I mourned the drug like someone I had loved had passed on. I cried for it. I yearned for it. But I finally made it through, and the end result is far much better than you could ever imagine. I prayed to God to remove the want and need from me..and he did. As long as i do my part, He does his. You have to want to quit and you have to give it a shot. Please contact me. I am willing to help in any way I can. ANY WAY. Take care and God Bless. I will be praying for you and your family.
Valerie

I hope you kick it… heaven knows I hope you do. I’m passionate about this, and I love to hear that you want to kick it. If i can help I will too!
rl@genesisconceptions.com if you need me!
meth is nasty bussiness…but you’re halfway there.
It breaks my heart to see how many people don’t want to quit…