Two days into the new year and already I can’t keep my resolution. I miss so badly the days where things were so easy. We would talk for hours on end, just enjoying one another’s company. Now I can’t help but overanalyze every move he makes as we try to reconcile things. I’ve been leaving it up to him to contact me every day. So far it has worked; he’s the one who calls me every night. But today, he called and only talked to me for about 20 minutes. We never talk for such a short time unless something comes up, or one of us was just taking a break from doing something. I should be thinking “Well, he must want to try and fix things if he still calls me and still says ‘I love you,’ but instead I’m thinking, “Why don’t we talk like we used to?” The last time we talked about our issues he said, “We’ve always toed the line between friendship and a relationship…just when we got to the “relationship” area, you hurt me and set us way back. I’m still up for seeing where this goes, but I’ve been pushed closer to the “friendship” side. I guess all these things combined is causing me to overanalyze every small detail. I just want things to go back to the way they used to be, and I keep overanalyzing and projecting and scaring myself, thinking we’re not going to make it. Logically I know that we’ll be ok, but my emotions keep getting the best of me. If I keep overanalyzing, I’ll lose any chance of bringing our relationship back to where it used to be. I need…the strength to get through this.