One thing I’m realizing from everyone’s comments on my last post is the idea that it’s ok, and pretty natural, to change your mind. I always thought it would be so great if I just had wanted to be a doctor or something, because people who become doctors always seem to have known exactly what they wanted to do – you’d have to in order to go through that much school! But it’s not very realistic to think that people really make The Big Decision when they’re just starting out in college. For the most part everyone is too busy partying and getting used to being on their own to make an intelligent decision about a major.

I always thought that a career change was basically admitting that you effed up, and that not having a solid plan in place that will take you through to retirement meant you were a loafer. But now I realize, you go through so many changes during the course of your life, especially in your 20’s and 30’s, when you’re growing up for real. It’s almost as if your personality molts, like a snake. And even now, the idea of deciding definitively “THIS is the thing I want to do for the rest of my life” is scary. And damn near impossible. Who knows how I’ll feel in the next 5 or 10 years?

The only thing I know right now is that I’m not happy with where I am, which is pretty much nowhere meaningful anyway. So whatever I decide, as long as I follow my heart (and stop letting my brain butt in so much) I think it will take me to the right places in life, even if those places keep changing.