And it’s the perfect time. I’m so upset that I’m giving up something that could turn into more… I feel like it’s my fault.

But then I take a step back and realize that it’s not the case at all. I got sucked into a messed up situation… and maybe if the timing was different it would have worked out. But HE is at fault. I cannot wait around for someone to get their act together.

...How is it that I am now feeling like I’ve made a mistake by NOT sleeping with a guy who has a girlfriend?? I did the right thing. I stepped back and remained friends and was patient… I believed him when he said he knew he had to break up with his girlfriend, that they weren’t right for each other, but that it was difficult for him to end it etc… I waited, but one can only wait so long.

Grah, I need to stop waiting around for people who are messed up. I get attached so easily… I see something special in a person and truly believe that they are the one. But I need to take this goal seriously. I need to focus on enjoying my own life, someone else will come along, someone who is not an ass.