LetMeStand a different kind of beautiful
I’ve tried this so many times. And it’s really really difficult for me. The brain cells smoking occupies, the activity, the habitation of idle time, the hand to mouth motion… those are all really big draws for me. The most irritating thing of all is that when I know I have things I need/want to be doing… but want to put them off… having a cigarette is a way for me to feel like I’m successfully completing an action at least. It’s total bullshit and I’m sick of it… but I have a neighbor who is my smoking pal and I work at a bar and there are just so many opportunities to fail at quitting that I’ve not pulled it off for more than a week or so! ANY support, advice, words of encouragement or warning would be GREATLY appreciated!! I really want smoking to stop eating up at my health, my mood, my guilt and my wallet!


