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souls that are trying their best to cheer their lives & others’..
Today, I shed a few tears..
Not out of sadness or pain ..but out of gratitude..! I really don’t know what brought me to watch that documentary.. At first, I didn’t care that much , but later I was speechlessly stone cold ! It was about people who committed suicide & those members of “suicide prevention center ” talking about their so touching experiences..
In fact, I quitted thinking of eliminating the misery & sadness in the world long time ago . It brought me nothing but restless tears & others’ mockery & silly remarks. Ever since I was a child, I’ve been subject to over obsession about the miserable, sick, poor or whatever kids in my school .. I used to secretly fantasize about my future career as the most humanitarian in the world. Oh dear! It was such a shame for me to shed a hell of tears watching cartoons ( one of them was ” The little Match Girl”).I knew that it was a fairy tale, but I knew too that there were lots of children out there victims of social circumstances & facing a similar end . I knew that it wasn’t children stuff. So early I was aware that I had brains & hypersensitivity. I tried hard to hide & disregard that fact because it caused me constant poignant pangs of conscience & a feeling of utter helplessness.
So, when I lost faith in people around me, I shifted my awareness to a higher level. Instead of trying to change the unchangeable bad, I wanted to focus on the good growing in abundance. I just wanted to vibrate to the good & positive people. I knew that they’ll vibrate back since that the perfect generous universe was our medium . I’ve been looking for them so long until I stumbled upon them here. This is more than enough for me . I can handle my life well with all it’s ups & downs. I have a notable history with that, but it’s unprecedented for me to communicate this way ..the way I’ve always dreamed about !
So, if u & I were lucky enough to meet each other here regardless of the support we are able to show, & if we were able to believe in God , a higher power or even just our own dreams & ambitions, shouldn’t we then be overwhelmed with gratitude while those unfortunate fearful people had tons of unsolved problems throughout their lives ?.. Maybe we were lucky for just having the courage & patience to overcome our fears & never give up trying. In fact, now I recall such an impressive sentence I heard on a radio show while I was on my way to work a week ago :” A man is actually a spoilt creature. ” I never stopped thinking about it since then ..
To all the beautiful souls
Stay beautiful ..Stay cheerful..
All the best..