to realise there isn’t an answer to this. It took me a long time to properly acknowledge that we live in a world essentially without structure or rules. Certain ideals are paraded before us of things we are supposed to aspire to, or ideals we should live up to, and fear of failing in these makes it difficult to see (through) them for what they are.

What is it you enjoy doing? That’s a good starting point. Other than that, most of what’s put in front of us is b*, in my opinion.