as my freshman year came to a close, i realized that not much had improved from the beginning of the year. my behavior remained the same throughout the year, and i felt like i had even less control at times. i realize that i could be prone to abusing substances, so i’m going to use this summer to sober up and really consider the way this last year has gone. i’m hoping to come back to school and focus more and party less; maybe this will help out my reputation and self esteem. also, i realized my tendency to be emotionally dependent on guys. i feel like i have more control when i have a stable boyfriend, so i also want to spend this summer focusing on being in control and stable on my own.