Falling in and out of love makes me think that this goal may not be achieveable in the long term. I have gotten very close to this recently, but then, as is my pattern of not the best luck, turns out I couldn’t. I have been trying to understand why it is that I attract these kinds of men in my life. I trust friends, but those bonds dont last forever, and many times I come in 2nd or third place to loved ones and family. Ay!