Alot of my energy has been spent on thinking about the people that have disrespected me in life. How I didn’t deserve such actions and how wrong I thought they were because in an environment like the work place for example I thought to myself.
” All I’ve been doing is waking up early and getting dressed and ready and pushing my self with no complaints. Now some of these people want to talk about me behind my back saying something is wrong with me because they don’t like me.”
I felt disrespected and that brought along some resentment for my job. What I failed to realize and now do, months later is by my focusing on these negative people and this feeling of disrespect I actually disregarded the assistance many of my other coworkers offered me. I disregarded the people that helped me and if I were reckless with my words would have badmouthed the entire establishment in my bitterness. I would have started my own cycle where someone who was making an honest effort was offended and disrespected in a completely unjustified manner. Today I learned to appreciate the efforts of those that help you in life. Those efforts no matter how small fight away the influence of people that want to bring you down to their level. I know this is long but its a great revelation for me I had a similar experience in high school where I felt disrespected by my peers. I felt like I was there and willing to help them out whenever and they went behind my back to only talk about what they saw as my weaknesses. To be appreciative and to focus on productive energy I think will allow me to lead a happier life from now on and dispose of the baggage/drama I never wanted any association with in the first place that my lack of appreciation and self-centered mindset has brought to my doorstep in the past.