When J suddenly decided to up & leave her boyfriend & move out & wanted to get a place together, I had lots of reservations. When w(sh)e decided on the place, I had even more concerns. But I thought she needed me, that I owed her (for giving me a place to stay last year when I desperately needed it) and that if I relaxed and tried to make the best of things that I could make the situation better.

Wrong.

In fact, the situation is WORSE than I imagined it would be. There have been a few “big” things but mostly its just been “little” things on a very regular basis that have left me feeling used, weary, uncomfortable and a little lost. I recognized instantly this was not going to work; that this lifestyle is not the lifestyle I want to be living. I should have said no to begin with but here I am.

Then my laptop was stolen last night. Right out of my room, charger and all. I am beside myself and I am SO done. I need a plan but mostly I need to get the hell out of dodge before I lose everything I have worked so hard for- things, but my peace of mind as well.

A big change is coming.

“There’s a difference between knowing the path and walking the path.”