I have been on the road for just over 4 weeks now. In that time I crossed over 4 time zones travelled through 10 states, drove 7000 miles and seen some of the most amazing natural wonders known to man. I should feel motivated to see more and do more but at this moment I am feeling strangely empty. I am doing something that most people could only dream of, yet at the same time I feel like I am living a strange nightmare. It’s always been my dream to drive across America travelling from place to place meeting people seeing sights and having adventures.
However, reality doesn’t exactly turn out like the dream. I still feel empty when I should be enriched with the beauty and possibilities that life can bring. This road trip is starting to become like a long drawn out routine. I wake up from my motel room tired from the previous night drive rushing to make the check out time. We drive up to 3-4 hours to make the next attraction on our see before “we die list”. I take my photos and leave and drive another 3-4 hours for our next destination, stopping only for gas and miscellaneous snacks such as potato chips and dip. Have dinner at a chain restaurant where they serve one of the following pizza, steak, fajita and burgers. We then look for a motel chain we recognise because the independent ones looked closed or similar to ones where we wake up without one of our kidneys. We sleep and wake up and repeat the process. That is the cold reality of the road trip.
I am starting to think that this is my problem because the others are enjoying this trip. I just feel so lonely sometimes. I have to film, take photos, blog and figure something out a rough itinerary all the while worry about the new problems that might arise and anticipate them. I barely have time to think about why I am going on this trip and what do I want to achieve from it. Maybe I need some alone time from the others.
I still haven’t met anyone from America yet who can help me understand the country more. The more I travel the more complex the country becomes. I become confused in my search for “happiness”. I don’t need a “teacher figure” in particular, just someone nice to talk too. Someone I can chat to about anything from stories about our past to our hopes for the future and life strange little oddities. Anything it’s amazing how a friendly face can put everything into prospective.
I am heading towards the east coast now on the final stretch of the trip. I am in South Dakota at the moment heading north to Wisconsin heading south and to Chicago to Buffalo and then to the cities in the east coast New York, Boston and Philadelphia and Washington DC. I hope things can get better for me. I would love to meet some you on this site or anyone you might know who be interested in my project .
Here is my US number and email address
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