am hating my life right now and dont’ know what to do about it

too much chaos too much out of control stuff too much indecision too much stuff out of reach

if there were just ONE THING i could do today to get a feeling of CONTROL, if nothing else, that would be sthg

i suppose no choice but the work backlog lame and tedious and odious though it is

how nice it would be to find a better job or what have you but a sense that i don’t have the qualifications and I wouldnt be any better at it than I am at the BS now

so I’ll just do THE ONE THING I know I need to do now and leave it at that, too bad about negative emotions.