i flow all the time. in times of rush and pressure i am aware that i am the one who chooses the amount of pressure i feel. things just flow. everything clicks into right place.
i think i am very close to this goal. reading my last post i see a big difference. i let things happen spontanously i don’t force things no more. i become a person who never gives up so there is no need to force things.
i forgot that i ever had a feeling of being in control. it looks absurd to me now. or being helplessness. in fact i now for the first time cleary see those two comes hand in hand. the wish to be in control leads to feeling of helplessness.

it all just happened. in fact i stop noticing this goal – i completely forget about it – although it is very high on my list.
i think the flow is present all the time, it is unstoppable. it is the Absolute. it is only the matter of opening towards that feeling.to stop struggle. in fact, it is natual as breathing: when you stop holding your breath, you breath naturally with no effort.