fruitbat is moving forward.
Coming off my depression and anxiety medications has left me very… depressed and anxious. He has been wonderful about it, like he always is. But it has been difficult lately. I get so paranoid that I’m bothering him or putting too much pressure on him to make me feel better. I need to be with him too much to avoid seeing him like I can everyone else in the world, but he’s the person whose opinion matters the most to me. I feel like I constantly need to seek out reassurance that I am wanted but am terrified of being rejected, and end up hypersensitive to everything he says and does. I go through horrible mood swings and can’t get through a day without crying. I know it’s not my fault, but I feel so guilty… I am determined to make this up to him. Right now all I can do is try to explain what I’m going through and tell him how much it means to me that I have him to help me through it. But it doesn’t feel like enough. I want to find some way to show him…