brill, honestly.

fuuuuuck. my neg thoughts today were related to my appearance. i don’t want compliments or reassurance, just being honest.

a couple of years ago i made the mistake of confiding to my dad some guy probs i was having (guy i liked ignored me in favor of beautiful person). i say mistake b/c my dad has a lot of antiquated views and is a major part of the reason why i’m a feminist.

anyway, his answer was, “Well, you know as men get older they tend to upgrade and get younger, more attractive women.”

i was thinking about that and feeling depressed and wondering if there are any guys not like that and if there are, where are they? so yeah, i guess my thoughts took a downward spiral from there. as obnoxious as it was, there is truth in my dad’s statement. and it hurts b/c i can’t change how i look. and how i look is such a small part of who i am. and it makes me angry. maybe i’m angry and not depressed.

sorry i’m so lazy

quit chocolate for weight watchers

or at least cut down

:0)

love this

isn’t it strange how we (as in humans) attach emotional significance to concepts such as up and down. What is it about one direction that is more positive than the other?

In chinese medicine, we learn that while balance is good, it doesn’t mean that this “balance” is the same for eveyone. Some of us tend to be more “melancholic”, others more angry, others more “happy”. Even being too happy is bad, ex: people who tend to laugh at inappropriate times, they also tend to have more heart problems.

It is a problem if it gets in the way of your everyday functioning, but maybe it’s ok if this happens every once in a while too?

xoxo

You should check out a book called Metaphors We Live By, by Lakoff & Johnson. They go into all the different metaphors we use in our speech, and how they actually affect (and are affected by) the way we view the world. Really interesting book, especially the section on “spatial” metaphors—like up/down, forward/backward, etc. They also talk about the fact that these metaphors are not universal—they vary by language and culture. As an American/English speaker, for example, it was interesting to read about cultures where the past is considered to be ahead while the future is behind. That concept is so—for lack of a better word—foreign to me, but really interesting to consider, and it’s interesting to think about the psychological ramifications of such a viewpoint.

Anyway, I know you just had a random aside, but I had to say something. Sorry.