While talking to my grandmother today, she informed me of the suicide of the County Treasurer who my grandfather had been friends with. It’s similar to the one I shared recently under another entry of State Treasurer R. Budd Dwyer.

Grandma went on to ask about my role as paramedic and if I’ve had to go on any suicide calls. I shared with her about the 14 year old, and she indicated how hard it must be. I explained to her how while I’m doing my job, my focus in on doing what needs to be done and there isn’t an emotional component to it.

I had wondered about being able to go to a gun related suicide since that’s how Travis had died, but it did not affect me the way that I feared it might.

I feel bad for the Wagner family for what they are now going to go through. With the anniversary of Travis’ suicide coming up, this is a time when my family is always on edge, and this one just helps keep those old wounds fresh.