too bad your mom’s love is reserved for a fantasy boy – she is missing out on the real thing.

It is her loss – you are there, but you can’t make her be someone she is not any more than she can do that to you.

Time to turn away, toward those who do care for you. Accept the love there is, accept that there are sources of love you wish you had and do not. Acceptance is a big key,

aloha, Draco, much aloha to you.

expressive poetry, Draco. And I have to second what Tiki says. Sometimes we find ourselves in an environment that just can’t accept us for who and what we are. We have all been there to one degree or another, but it’s doubly hurtful when that environment is family. Sometimes we can’t get out of that environment right away, but we wait for the day we can, and we move to one that accepts us and nurtures us. It’s out there, Draco, and it is in this world, not the next. You will find it.

that’s good poetry.

i’m trying to think of how to get you out of your situation, and most of it involves money to move out. since that may not be an option, then you may have to go to the source. like confronting your mother about how you feel. if you’re being backed into a corner, you’ll have to fight a little.

also, what kind of art (painting) do you like? i like oil and anime, but i don’t like furries.

It’s a show where actors stage situations in public and hidden cameras record the reactions of passersby, such as: what do they do when they see teens spraying grafitti on a car? If the teens are white do they react differently than if the teens are black? What if they see a drunk college student about to get in a car? Do they react differently if that college student is a male or a female?

The one I just watched included actors portraying a “young gay man” coming out to his “dad” in a coffee shop (and later, to his “mom,” all actors). In each instance, the parent rejected the son, sometimes saying very hurtful things.

The sad thing was that you know these conversations happen on a daily basis around the world. The happy part was that every single person who witnessed the parent’s rejection (including a variety of ages, races, and genders) was upset and felt badly about it. Some comforted the “young man” after the incident, others confronted the parent in the situation, etc. You might not receive support from your parents, which of course is very painful. You will find people in your life who accept you and support you and love you for who you are. Definitely.

I think for parents, they have a vision of how their child’s life is going to be, and when it does not turn out according to their vision, it is very upsetting for them. Sometimes they do get over this – most of my gay friends’ parents were accepting, but not all. Some rejected the idea at first, but then came around. Some never came around, but that was the exception rather than the rule. ALL of my friends who are gay were much happier when they decided to be true to themselves and honest about who they were.

I feel sad for what you are going through. I hope you will make a plan for how you can go the places you’d like to go and live the way you’d like to live in happiness.

_{This article and video might be interesting for you. Some people rejected this pastor for his decision, but the number of people who embraced him was much greater.}