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Suicide attempt right in front of me ! 3 years ago

I wish this hadn’t happened to me, but it has and I would like to share it.
Yesterday, I was late for a photo shoot of a young up and coming actress who’s training for the London marathon. It was in an area I have never been before. Somewhere in SE London, for those who know the city.

I was rushing to the training grounds and had to cross some train tracks on the way. As I reached the end of the spiral foot bridge, I noticed a woman standing on the train tracks !! ON THE BLOODY TRAINTRACKS…. In the corner of my eye I had also noticed two police people running towards me. I looked at the women, who wasn’t more than 2 meters away from me, but seperated from me by a very tall fence.

I think for 30 seconds I was in total shock. Then I started yelling at her : What the hell are you doing?Get off the tracks woman, I didn’t know I could yell so hysterically at a stranger, but I did. She just shook her head, steadfast in her decision that she was going to end it there and then. All I could think was : Am I really going to have to witness this ? Right here in front of me ? When the police arrived, I started crying, I think I was in shock, I was shaking. But the determined woman had broken down in tears as well, after seeing my reaction; a stranger caring enough to get hysterical.

The police got her off the tracks safely in the end, after some persuasion. I don’t know what happened to her next or why or who she was. I was still late for my job, so had to run to get there. I was in no state to take any good pictures the first 30 minutes, oh I can tell you… It still makes me feel awkward and shocked. The biggerst shock of all was the feeling of being utterly powerless to do anything.

All I could do was to be me and cry. And deep down I know that reached her. I hope it did. I doesn’t even really matter, she was saved in the end and hopefully won’t do it again.



Comments:

You were there for a reason

Amazing. I’m almost in tears just reading your story. What a difficult place to be. It’s hard to imagine being at that point in life when you decide the thing for you to do is stand on the tracks and let a train hit you.

I was suicidal for a few years when I was younger. In retrospect I guess I never really made an attempt, but I sure felt like dying.

One day I woke up and decided that the chirp of a bird or a bud on a branch or the wisp of a cloud was plenty of reason to go on living….just to witness the world in action.

Life is amazing. I’m so grateful that I have one.

Good for you. I hope you were touched and live every moment as if it were your last. And I hope she figures life out too.

Bless you.

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There are no coincidences

You were there and served a great purpose.

JP

I wish I could send multiple cheers to you

Please imagine that my one feeble cheer is filling in for a multitude. I understand how distressing it may have been for you, but I’m so pleased to know that other people in London are not dead to emotion yet. Thank you Thank you Thank you.

I get so down when there is an announcement on the tube that there are delays because of someone under a train and all most people do is tut & swear. Where has the care gone? Where are the feelings? I’ve been in London since 1990, but I’ll never be a Londoner because I can’t stop feeling. I’m glad you can’t too.

Big hug to you. You truly did a wonderful thing. You didn’t just stand and gawp like most.

byebedlam is back!

Lady is so lucky to have met you.

You were there for her.

I’m glad that you were, even though it must have been horrible for you at the time. Thank you for sharing this with us. I hope this experience embues you with a stronger sense of life, you may have felt powerless but your mere presence there had an effect on her. You delivered her from the jaws of death, there is no doubt about that.

You are someone who cares enough about life to shout it out. Good on you, and I hope others draw strength from your story.

That must of been terrible for you.
Your very strong and I’m sure she realized that you cared for her.

I had a stranger care for me when I was that low and he stopped me, just like you stopped her.
That was truly touching. Part of me is sad you had to see her like that but the other part is glad you were there to show her that someone cared for her.


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