control my jealousy
Im better than her!!!

This is the only girl that im jealous about and it burns me inside ..it all started when my gf told me that she thought alex was pretty. I didnt even care until that same day alex told me that my gf was pretty also..right then and there i started feeling hot, sweaty i mean i was having a panic attack..for some odd reason this doesnt happen to me..we hung out with alex & her gf & then there was a movie that i had never watched with my gf that really didnt seem all that great & the next thing i know alex is like omg thats my favorite movie i was like WTF & at that moment I started thinking ..wait they have things in common to? ..WTF..I got over that part.everything was great i started notecing that alex & her gf wernt really getting along with eachother..then at work my gf started to tell me that alex was sharing personal information with her and my gf need someone to talk to so they both starting talking even more ..Yall dont know whow much that killed me inside then alex & her gf broke up..well my gf is really nosy & of cousre alex asked to be her friend on facebook..so i was actually getting concerned and confronted my gf about and it was a mess i was crying and telling her that i want to be the person she runs to when she needs to talk to someone just like i do & that I dont trust alex .well my gf didnt care at all ..one day we were getting off work and alex had came to our job for some reason..my gf was like well you can come stay in our living room i though oh hell no!! Of course alex said no thank god ..but my gf doesnt notice this but she get nervous around her and doesnt talk to her as mcuh as she askes alex how her day was at work..ahhh and one day i check her phone to see what names she had been writing to and alexs name was on there..the next day i check it again and her name was deleted and that made me ANGRY..i confronted her about it and she was like well i didnt want to tell you because i knew that you would act this way and i told yes its because im jealous of her ..you both have things in common you think shes pretty and so does she , shes lonely and your hidding text messages from me..WELL HOW IN THE HELL AM I SUPOSE TO ACT..It was a crazy fight..finally i told her its me or her friendship..of cousre she had to choose me.everthing was great until now 1 year later alex askes to be her friend again..but see i stopped drinking for my gf i stopped going out ..my whole life was a trun around and i have more confidence now then i did before .So now i hold my head up hight ..so alex what have you done with you life?...so on a sheet i wrote all the good things about me to bring my self asteem up and trust me it works!! alez Im better than you because i have high goals in my life & im not jealouse of you any more!! but i still dont trust you …dont try anything girl because you will regret it!!



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