As a pre-teen I would mess around with keyboard instruments (organ, etc) when privacy was guaranteed, like when home alone. This, and an extremely brief flirtation with more formal lessons ultimately didn’t go anywhere, I think largely because I just needed people to bugger the **** off and let me play and practice in private on my own terms, without my having to be put on display and all that.

Later, like in high-school age, I didn’t really care about being on display or under observation that much, but had lost most of the interest in learning to play. The magic of it fizzled out or got lost

I’ve never been able to truly get that magic back. I’ve had a couple more brief flirtations with practicing, but in the end I just can’t find any real motive. Substantial latent musical talents, I have the feeling…it’ll happen if and when it’s meant to I suppose.