I am always so nervous and it just ruins everything. Because of it, I am not close to a lot of people. I may just have a few close friends and thats about it. I hate making small talk with people.

This also effects how I do in school. I’m aweful at public speaking. My hands get sweaty, I shake, my voice isnt stable and clear, and its just overall bad.

And my nervousness has caused me to do a lot of stupid things. Like act differently infront of my friends and family…I cant even have a straight forward conversation with my family members because I’m so nervous around them. Its bad.

So, I guess this is the thing that I’m going to be working on for a while,but I’m going to take small steps to get out of this.

For exapmle, in the next few months my teacher assigned us a presentation to do with a partner. So maybe I could speak more so I can get better with public speaking. And the drama team at my school is doing a miming skit and I’m the main character so maybe these things will help me. Especially if I put a lot of effort into each of these.

Well, wish me luck. And the next time I will update on this is Feb. 18 (a few days after our presentations start)