I realise many peoples are very normal looking but they are very confident and that makes them to be attractive to others. Furthermore, they know how to doll- up, dress- up and make-up. And, frankly speaking, I dun like it cos I dunno how to make-up and i dun have the confidence they have. I know im very bad. In fact, Im jealous of them and I even dislike them. I know this is wrong but i just can’t help it. I keep on thinking its unfair that ppls find them attractive when they are not. Its unfair that many pretty peoples hu are not confident, are not acknowledged as beauties. Oh dear, I really need to get rid of such evil thoughts. They are confident, vibrant and happy. Of course, they attract peoples. Im envious of them and I really want to be like them too. Postive peoples have an unexplainable attractive force whereas the true speaks itself for vice versa too. Many peoples have comment that I look very depress and some are even afraid to talk to me though they have told me that I look pretty. =x Im not trying to show off here. But, I think i really need a change. I have no idea its the so many sad things that I’ve been through that make me become so depress in life or what. I am suspicious of people and afraid to be in a big group. I keep on worrying that people will find my braces ugly and I dun dare to smile the way I used to with my mouth opened. I dun dare to talk much becoause of my braces. I become over self- conssious. Another thing is that Im short, and it makes me feel inferior. I am so envious of those people hu are tall.They look better in clothes.=( Im just not com4table with hu I am. And, I dun like to take photos Im just not photogenic and I get uneasy in front of camera. I am really in need of some internal makeover.I want to love the one in front of the mirror. I want to be very attractive and sexy.