I was supposed to know that. But I haven’t prepared for it. That was the worst 30 minutes of my life but I hope and pray i will be able to finish this day with a happy thought. I want to cry. I want to shout. I want to be out of here but I can’t. I have a job to do. I have to face this even if I feel humiliated about myself.
Speaking my mind is difficult. Speaking in English is more difficult. Why can’t I speak fluently in English? I have been learning that since birth (although I don’t speak it always.)
I don’t want that to happen again. I don’t want to stand in front of everyone without knowing what to say. I don’t want to bluff with no sense. I don’t want to experience that again.
This will be the last time!!!