I am just so not thinking about him right now. Its hard, I wanted to be with him for longer, but I guess I built him up in my head as Mr Perfect, he was far from it and now I know there is no such thing. I even learnt to accept your flaws but you should not have tried to change me and cause me so much hurt. On the 6Th of May it will be 60 days since we have spoken. I no longer have your numbers but you have mine. I avoid going where you will be. Balls in your court but I know you will not change. I am not in love with you, I am in love with this idea I have of you. I can get through this, I am strong. I hope I do not get with anyone else for a while. It would just be you I think about. I wish the best for you, because I cannot hate you. It just too difficult. I really hope you find what you are looking for in a girl cos it was not me. As soon as I am nearly over you I am going to change my numbers, make it harder for you to fuck with my head.