I think i’ve done this as much as i can. I can understand where they came from with their actions, as weak and selfish as they were. I don’t really feel anger toward them anymore, it’s more of a i feel sorry for them for wasting their lives. I could’ve been a better person at this point in my life but i don’t really hate who i’ve become either. I have much to work on but none of it has anything to do with them anymore since their time influencing me has past long ago. We’ll never be “close” but in our own strange ways we’ll care and always be there for each other in some way, so i keep them in my life at a distance.