I can’t get over my doubt. The thing that’s really bugging me is that since we’ve decided to “try” my motivation level in other aspects of my life is dropping. I’m not putting the same effort into my runs or work-outs. California definitely seems on the back-burner. Today I even slept in some. I probably shouldn’t feel bad about that but I do. What a weird place I find myself in. Well hopefully work today lets me forget about this stuff, if only for 8 hours. It’s like my subconcious is trying to tell me something, something that I think I already know.