Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves

4.1 “Is something keeping me from beginning my “fearless” and “searching” inventory? What?”

Yep. FEAR! It’s hard to be fearless when you are afraid!!

I’m afraid to face up some embarrassing, upsetting, hurtful, dangerous, stupid and regretful things I’ve done.

I’m afraid to write those things down.

I’m afraid to open up some dark emotions I keep locked away with the help of food, alcohol and nicotine.

I’m afraid of completing step 4 because then I will need to move on to step 5.

The other things stopping me is time and space. Even right now I am furiously typing in the knowledge my hubby and children will come crashing through the door any minute. A noisy crowd of hungry people wanting to be fed and listened to.

This is such a priority in my life right now and yet I seem to keep putting it off through wanting to meet the needs and demands of my children, family, friends and colleagues.

It’s so easy to get distracted by life even though I need to work the step right now more than anything.