It feels so good to read the other entries because I feel the exact same way as all of you guys. My friends and I joke about my health obsession a lot but none of them actually understand what’s underneath it. They think it’s just something that’s on my mind but they don’t know that I spend so much time on the internet hoping that I won’t find what I think I’ll find and trying to comfort myself but only getting worse. It’s such a lonely feeling because I have never met another hypochondriac and I feel like nobody understands what it’s like living in this kind of fear. I’m so glad to see that other people feel the same way (not that I’m glad you guys are in pain). I went to a therapist but it was clear she had no idea what to do with me so I left, and now I’m thoroughly convinced that there’s no one who can help me. It’s hard to understand what kind of fear we go through and how horrifying it is unless you actually are a hypochondriac. I’ve fantasized countless times about the moment I get diagnosed with the disease that’s going to end my life, but the truth is that I still have no idea. Everyone out there, I feel your pain and I know we’ll all get through this. It will get better, I know it will. I haven’t found anything that helps yet, but when I do (which I will) I’ll share it here. Good luck mates! <3