i feel tired, excited, frustrated, released.

i am on an enquiry, my coach says. and i think, yes, i am. better than not being on an enquiry. and it’s ok to just be with that. i don’t have answers but at least i’m asking questions.

what’s there to give up? what is missing? joy, inspiration, excitement, fulfilment. what’s the pay off? being right, making others wrong, dominating the situation.

people see powerful, engaging, intelligent, attractive, motivating, fun, beautiful, joyful. who am i not to be that?

i give up being right about not being a good person and not deserving to be loved. i give up dominating situations by removing my joy and confounding expectations. i give up making others wrong when they acknowledge my greatness.