is the word. sigh :(

i have been very emotional lately, taken it out on him. he knows im not happy. ive lost my cool, been emotional. still love him, he loves me. same old story. balls in his court. doubt anything will happen.

not sure what to do short of breaking up with him. he knows its on my mind. we have talked aobut it before and tried to break up before. but always too much love there so we stay together.

i know he loves me, but not enough to do the things so that we can be happy, never mind that its actually in his best interests to do so, and if things dont change, he will one day regret his decisions now. not sure how much of this i can bare. all i want to do is be happy and all i am is unhappy.