So I have a mild PTSD sortof disorder. It’s disruptive to my relationships, but is not preventing me from getting on with daily life. I want to learn how to feel love, give love, and all that jazz. I feel like there was a time when I was good at it, maybe. But that time has long since passed. it’s time to love again.

Things I’m doing:

I’ve been reading True Love, by Thich Nhat Hanh, but it’s been months, and I’m only on like page 6. I’m trying to really absorb it, and change… but I need to amp it up a little. Ok, a lot.

In conjunction with the book I’m doing breathing meditation which goes to the tune of “I know I am breathing in/out” etc. I’m adding “Loved one I am here for you” as it mentions doing, while picturing each of the entities I am trying to learn to love properly.

This practice motivated me to go and brush Midnight, the cat. What’s great about that is that he’s all purring, and rubbing against my leg like cats do, and it’s very rewarding, short term, which I think is extremely valuable on day one. People aren’t nearly so reliably responsive to attention/affection/love. Pity.