Saraband is trying :)

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Bliss

Nothing in particular happened today. It was an ordinary, everyday, quietly busy sort of day. And at some point as it ran its course I became aware that this is my life: the life I chose. And I realised that I needed nothing more: that I wasn’t waiting for this to happen, or for that to be resolved; I wasn’t rushing through tasks or skimming the surface. This is my life in this moment and it’s perfect, exactly as it is. Profound gratitude :)

Jul 12, 2011, 01:52AM PDT | 11 cheers


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CrunchyBread

perfectly ordinary life

That is one of the most beautiful things possible to say. Profound, indeed.

I’ve had moments like this too. Moments where I just suddenly “got it”, and realized things are the way they are, and that was all they needed to be. For me it was so deeply moving that it changed me forever.

I’m joyful for you. :)

Jul 12, 2011, 06:01AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 6 cheers

Saraband is trying :)

Thank you Crunchy :)

Yes, such moments are to be cherished. As with many things I find that the more I chase after something, or try to make something happen the more it remains tantalisingly out of reach. I also find that trying to capture, keep and experience the concept of something like a ‘perfectly ordinary life’ cannot happen intellectually. I can’t think my way into that state; it is reached via different channels.

And it is deeply moving :)

Jul 14, 2011, 04:07AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 2 cheers

CrunchyBread

Just So

You express it so well!!

I’m afraid when it comes to things as big as this, words tend to fail me. I hear you, I really do. I’m right there with you. You’re right, you cannot “think” yourself into it. It isn’t a pep talk. It’s a revelation.

I’ve never been able to talk about this much at all. I know most people would never understand. Possibly they’d think I was making a big deal out of nothing. But I know what it really is. I knew it from the first moment. It’s big. And it deserves all the space you can give it, to just cherish that moment, that revelation that things are JUST SO.

Words really are too small for me to express how glad I am that you’ve seen it, too. It’s like sharing an experience of seeing a bit of God.

Jul 14, 2011, 06:06AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 3 cheers

Saraband is trying :)

Almost

missed this – sorry for not replying earlier.

I’m happy that you understand what I’m trying to say. And I agree, there are things that are so hard to express in words. It’s possible to know exactly how one feels, to know and absorb something into your very soul, but find it impossible to convey it externally. In part that accounts for why I tend to be reticent in person: communicating something of value and importance seems so hard at times, and attempts have so often been met with blankness that I learned it’s better not to try.

Which makes it all the more special when someone does get it :)

Thank you Crunchy
x

Jul 21, 2011, 12:43AM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

JWillow

not sure

how I missed such a beautiful entry when you first posted it Saraband but I’m so glad I’ve come across it today; it has filled me with a lovely sense of peace & calm after a day of chaos. Thank you! xx

Jul 13, 2011, 02:42AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 5 cheers

Saraband is trying :)

:)

hugs

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