Starting Weight: 240
Goal Weight: 140
Current Weight: 152

Twelve pounds. Is it really that little? Am I really that little? It’s driving me insane a little, realizing how close I am to my goal, how long it’s taking me to reach that goal, and how even though I fall under the category of “healthy weight” now, I still feel like a fat kid.

Don’t misunderstand, I am insanely proud of what I’ve accomplished and I think I look really good, but I can still hear that nagging voice that I always expected to go away, that voice that says, “You’re still bigger than normal girls.” Then part of me wonders what I’ll look like at 140, and how I’ll feel when I get there. Chances are, I will cry and pull a Jared, showing off how big my 240 lb jeans are.

I suppose I don’t need to lose anymore once I’ve hit, I am, after all, 5’8”, I could stop now and my doctor wouldn’t complain. Really though, I only get to be relatively young once, and I’d like to spend the last few years of it feeling really awesome.

Thanks for letting me be a little emo. I’m gonna go eat more watermelon now. :)