I’ve got to snap out of whatever this is. It could possibly be depression but I’m not used to being down more than a day or two, a week tops. This is going on a month. It’s not sadness just disinterest and disdain for my current life. I have no clue what to do to change things though. I want to go the drastic route but too many obligations and people depending on me for that. When this used to happen I would just take a trip back home to get away for a while. That isn’t possible this year but now that I think about it we haven’t done much of anything this summer but have hard time after hard time. We haven’t even gone to the cabin. Maybe I need to plan a getaway here soon. Something before the kids school year starts. I’m afraid of coming back from the getaway and being just as down though!