events haven’t even already happened and I’m so freaked out and tired I can hardly spell right. thank goodness for the little red squiggley lines. of course it won’t know how to spell squigglely or whatever. sigh.

God, please help. please. I can’t think, I don’t want to pray and seek You. I haven’t really today. just kept moving. and tomorrow is coming like the music in Jaws. I just don’t. want. to face. any of it. :(

please help. You already have so much. I just need Your reassurance, please! Thank You for what I do know already and how I can already have started coping, dealing, and working through that. But still. oh please. hold my heart. keep it from getting into a mess since it’s already bruised a bit and broken into other little bits in places.

_{please, hide me until all these calamities be past! seriously!}

~ _CF