I don’t seem to be getting any thinner. Mores to the point, I’m getting fatter and fatter. I’m also getting more and more unhealthy. I feel tired, sick and like I’m falling apart. This may be a slight exaggeration, however I am feeling like I’m ugly and worthless to boot and so I’m wallowing in my own self pity.

I have a double chin that is slowly developing. I wish I could get a healthy balance with food. Some mornings I think that the answer might be to cut down on what I eat to the point of ridiculous so the weight falls off me again. But I know that’s not the answer. I know the answer is to have a healthy attitude to eating and to do sensible amounts of exercise. Further to this it’s about getting a decent number of hours sleep in a pattern that means I wake up feeling refreshed and that allows my metabolic rate to be ‘normal’.

If I could sum this goal up I would say ‘I’m punishing myself with food and making myself miserable!’