But I do know one thing. I am surprisingly well on my way to doing it. I logged into aim a couple of nights ago for the first time in literal years and noticed that his sn was on my buddy list and I wasn’t blocked. I knew he didn’t recognize my sn since it had been so long since I had used aim.

I was going to cuss him out up one way and down another and this time make sure he got my messages. Ask him how he can work on trust issues with someone and know them for eight years and talk about marriage and kids and then just stop talking to them. Maybe it was my fault for getting in a long distance relationship to begin with, but oh well.

All I did was remind him who I was and ask if he had gotten rid of any …hmm…pictures I may have sent him. He ignored my questions and didn’t im back and I wrote a sentence or two more and that was it.

It finally hit me that I just didn’t care. I didn’t want to waste anymore precious energy of mine caring about him anymore, after all the shit he’s put me through.

I’m just going to take this as fuel for me to become even more successfull and fulfill my dreams of being a famous writer/artist. To quote the Dresden Dolls song ‘Good Day’- ‘I want to do more than just survive, I want to rub it in your faces.’

I feel like some of the hurt has been lifted from me. Gods it’s been a lovely day. ^_