What is wrong with me that i can have a goal like this for four years and not achieve it? There must be something more going on here than meets the eye. Is this something people work on constantly through life or am I just a big slobby loser? I must need help with this, it seems I am falling short for way too long. I will inshallah seek some sort of help here. Either with the cleaning itself or mental help in why I can’t reach a simple goal over such a long time frame.