Almost entirely subliminally, in a process of less than 20 minutes out-of-the-blue decision making (From the moment when I was stood in the middle of Wales with a mug of tea thinking about her, only to realise she had texted me 30 mins before, and we spoke fir the 1st time since August), I have arranged for a coffee tomorrow with Julie, Jools, Jules, the erstwhile love of my life, who I last saw 4 years ago, last dated 12 1/2 years ago but still ADORE (as I have often as-good-as admitted on here)as quite probably the only woman I could imagine sharing my life with. the only woman that I could imagine, right now, ever being able to trust with my life. There may be others, but I havn’t found them!

I’m therefore planning to ask her whether (even though she’s currently married to my successor in the serial monogamy of her life), she would ever consider backtracking (forward tracking to a second time-around for us).
I’m planning to tell her that right now I cannot conceive of anyone else that I would trust with the rest of my life, and there is no-one else that I would dig deep for and raise their kids. There are many things i would have to change, but I will for her, if she wants it.